crazy stupid love

I've been going head over heels with this guy. I've been crazy. I've been happy. I've been drunk a couple of times. I've been crying. Yes he had made me sad but being with him takes it all away. Yeah, he's taking me high in the air. I'm so strung out. And it's depressing to think that he'll be gone soon and our status is still a question. I don't know what to do. I don't know why I'm still here when I know that it will still hurt in the end. Well, that's love... taking risks. My heart is bursting.. And I want to tell the world that I love him very much but things are very complicated. And it's so difficult on my part. I want to be with him but I don't know where I stand. Am I important? Days are counting... time is running fast.. I want to spend more time with him. But how?
Kuya gwapo, I will always just pray for you. I hope you are always fine. I will really miss you. :'( </3